I’m sat writing this blog whilst I have my toddler in my bed for the second time this week (although I won’t post it tonight)
Him being in my bed is totally out of the ordinary because he normally sleeps 12 hours. I remember all to well the times he didn’t sleep also! Because during that time it felt like it would never end!!! Litreally
The lack of time to myself, being unable to focus and never ending tears and tantrums (that was just me) but it did end, after what felt like a thousand years of course. I even remember having to cook tea whilst carrying him in a baby carrier.
It’s the second time today I’ve had this thought and it’s given me a mixture of emotions. I want to cherish this moment how ever hard it is (and believe me it’s very very hard because we didn’t actually sleep ) but at some point this won’t happen ever again. And although the tiredness is thinking thank god!! I know I will miss this. I do already.
Today (Thursday) Is mummy day
Well everyday is mummy day lol who am I kidding but I mean just mummy day.
Thursday is the day I spend QT with sonny
No work, no errands or shopping just me and him. It feels like only yesterday I was spending mummy day with his brother and I was pregnant with him😱
We headed off to a playgroup at our local church and I sat back and watched him playing and dancing around the hall. He is either going to be the future Billy Elliot or Ronaldo we aren’t sure yet 🤷♀️ and I thought one day very soon I won’t be doing this anymore.
One day he (my last ever baby) will go to school with he’s brother and sisters and my house will be quiet.
And of course I know it sounds like heaven and a part of me can’t fricking wait.
But a bigger part of me is sad, just like every other time this has happened with my other children.
But this time, today it feels different, because he’s my last baby.
I know it’s hard (mumlife) because I’ve got 4 children and I’ve been doing it for 14 years and still haven’t been able to master it. They say that practice makes perfect but I have to disagree. Practicing this for 14 years and I’m still not perfect 😬
And when your going through sleep regression, teething, breastfeeding, screaming for no reasonitis, illness and more just remember this will pass.
There will be a last of the hugs, the night time terrors, the parks, the playgroups and more. And they will be missed
Take it all in and breath ❤️💛
Love Gemma xxxxx
P. S. Don’t be fooled by his charm he also spent a whole hour screaming in our daily walk. And at that time I could wait for school! Balance 🤷♀️